Once you lose something special and important...it's hard to continue on. I'll admit that it has been one crazy journey for me. It's hard to wake up feeling terrible and feeling like you just need to crawl back in bed. It hasn't been easy to go through my day without having a breakdown. From being happy and all smiles one minute, to being angry or downright depressed and sobbing the next minute. I've just started my journey of grieving, healing and growing and it is not easy. I have wanted to just give up at times, but then I am reminded by God and the special people in my life, that I am a strong person and that I can and will get through this. God doesn't give trials and burdens to people who can't handle them. They are meant to strengthen us and grow us. If you are going through your own hardship, don't give up. It will get better and when you get through it, you will be even more amazing than you already are. So sure, smile, laugh, cry, scream. Do whatever you need to do to get it. Don't give up though. Face each and every day with the determination to get through this. You can do it. When you feel like no one Is listening or that no one will understand, remember that there is a God that created you and loves you and that He is always listening and understands in a way no one ever will. Keep you head up and face this obstacle with determination!